I Am Happy ???

My life is confused
My daily happiness
Is still confused.
My smiles that I give
Are confused...

But I don’t want to pretend
That I am happy when I’m not.
The smiles are numb to me
The laughs are numb to me
The good spirit is numb to me
The goals are lost and forever
Numb to me.

The love is no longer there
The happiness is no longer there
The smiles and pretending is
No longer there.
The happy thoughts are
No longer there.


Nowhere to be found
This is me.
But I don’t get it
They hurt me
Can’t they see?
Maybe I should just stay out
Of their lives...
 

I Love My Attitude...

Dont walk as if You rule the World,
Walk as if you Dont Care who Rules the World !

This is What I Call AttiTude !

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And soar to new heights of success and fulfillment.
Whether your attitude is negative...
Positive or somewhere in between,
This Manual Success will show you...
How to take control of your life and
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Its all about attitude...
And anyone who feels that he must be praised for his attitude r heartly welcome ...

This Is Life...!!!

When there is no friend,
When life is on the dead end,
When world is not a paradise,
When your confidence dies,
Tell yourself - Go on, THIS IS LIFE!

When things don't go right,
When there is no ray of light,
And its too hard to survive,
Tell yourself - Go on, THIS IS LIFE!


When there is competition to face,
When you are lagging behind in the race,
When you've lost faith in God,
When you're betrayed by a fraud,
Tell yourself - Go on, THIS IS LIFE!


When others don't respect you,
When you're not amongst the admirable few,
When for a question, you can't find a solution,
When all you're sure about, is confusion,
Tell yourself - Go on, THIS IS LIFE!


When your destination is miles apart,
When you don't know where to start,
When all you see around is pain,
When your hard work is in vain,
Tell yourself - Go on, THIS IS LIFE!


Even though all this happens,
just have faith in self & face the life with smile,
things will surely change one day
because as said "THIS IS LIFE ...!!!"

Failed To Judge People In Life

The biggest mistake of my life...
.....is that I said "YES",

When I had to say "NO".


Yes, I Failed To Judge People And Situation In Life...

I Once Was Alive

Alone I Sit Here Empty And Cold
The Light Beckons Me
It Forces Me To
Be Okay

Hidden Away My Feelings
Are Showing No Emotions Is,
How I Am?

I Have To Fight
To Be Alive,
I Have To Pretend
To Care,

The World Crushed
My Dream,
Yet It Forces Me To be...

I Once Was Alive...

Lying To Forget

This lie's become a part of me
For months, I've played this game
Acting like it doesn't hurt
Each time I hear her name

Ignoring what's inside of me
Pretending I've moved on
As if the feelings I once had
For her are somehow gone

Spending each and every day
With happiness and laughs
Forgetting all our memories
Avoiding photographs

But last night when I saw her
For the first time since she left
My heart stopped for a moment...
I couldn't catch my breath


When suddenly it hit me
As the tears started to flow
That even after all this time...
I just can't let her go

The Joke's On Me

I keep waiting for the phone to ring
Yet I know it won't be you;
I try to fill my life with busyness
Yet all I do is think of you.

What became of us
And all our dreams and plans;
How could you turn and walk away
As I watched our castles turn to sand?

Do you never even miss me
Don't you long to caress my face;
How could you forget so easily
And You I can't erase?

I want to be in your arms again
To see the laughter in your eyes;
But I guess the joke's on me
And Oh! Was I surprised!

Never Alone

I feel you in the morning
When at first I awake
Your thought is with me
With each decision I make

You'd been around forever
Since the first breath I took
Now I have to go on alone
But for love, I need not look

Cause by what you bestowed
In our short time together
Will last in my heart
Forever and ever

Although you've left
And now walk above
I'm never alone
I'm wrapped in your love

Enjoy now your long waited reward
Feel peace that your love continues on
What was taught to me, will be taught to mine
Cause you live on in me even after you've gone

The Day That I Die

On the day that I die
There will be no sun
It will all be cold
No warmth

On the day that I go
Everyone will go on
One less mouth to feed
Good riddance

On the day that I leave
No one will care
I had no one to start with
All alone

On the day that I die
I will not cry
We will all go soon
Why wait?


On the day that I go
I won't say Good-Bye
Who would care?
No one

On the day that I leave
I will be happy
The misery will go away
No pain

On the day that I die
My soul will let go
To all the torture
I'm free

I'm Alone In This Crowded Room

Alone !!!

Here I am, again,
alone,
in a crowded room . . .


No one here
I see.
No one here
but me,
in this crowded room,
alone,
with you
on my mind.

I can't help but wonder,
if you're thinking of me?
Are you looking for me
when I'm not there
in a crowded room
alone with you?

And still I wonder,
do you smile at me,
when you're thinking of me,
if you're thinking of me,
when you're alone
in a crowded room?

Nobody Is Perfect...Try Again !!

Everybody makes mistakes
Everybody has those days
Everybody knows what what
I'm talking about
Everybody get's that way

Nobody's Perfect!
I gotta work it!
Again and again 'til
I get it right
Nobody's Perfect!
You live and you learn it!
And it's ok if I mess it up sometimes...
Nobody's Perfect!

Next time you feel like...
It's just one of those days...
when you just can't seem to win
If things don't turn out the way you planned
Figure something else out!
Don't stay down! Try again!

I've Not Learned To Say "Goodbye"

Its So Difficult,
Why dont they teach This In School.
Its Not Easy To Let Some One Go,
Without Bringing Tears In Eyes.

I have Learned To Say "HI" and "HELLO",
But I have not Learned To Say "GOODBYE".

There's Only One Life

There's no more my heart can take
Always a second chance I want to make
Now it has become three, if it turns four
I will go away for I cant bear more

I can't rule your life for you
The choice is yours with what you do
Inside I have but nothing left
In times of love it feels like death

I'm only human, wanting more joy
Don't treat me like I'm just a toy
I hope from now you'll think of me
Through this distance, in love's loyalty

We have one life to walk in hand
At times it's hard, at times it's grand
None is perfect from mistakes we grow
Through thick n thin, through rain and snow


The future comes, but past forgot
Dishonesty n betrayal will only rot
This is the fact I want you to see
How much in life, you mean to me!

Nothing Is Forever..

How many friends have you lost along The way,

How many lovers gone from your sight,
How many times have you broken down in fear,

How many times have you cried yourself to sleep at night.
This world that we live in is far from perfect,
So many things that make it wrong,
Sometimes there's light that brightens up Your day,

But others its been dark all along.
How many times have you left your House crying,
Knowing things will never be the same,
How many times have you had to hide Behind a smile,

Live with a different name.
They say that life's what you make it,
But how can we control death,
One minute we are here living life,
The next out of breathes.

The journey of life confuses me,
Sometimes i just sit and wonder why,
Why do the people we are closest to,
Always have to die ???

Life is an Endless Journey

Life is the journey we all will take,
An undulating adventure,
Make no mistake.

Through it all we take things for granted,
And then look back with resent.
At the worries that have planted,
And the problems they present.

Though life does have many highlights,
Some that we won't ever believe.
Moments that had always been in our sights,
And tell of how much we can achieve.

And while we all go through at different pace,
To reach our final goals.
We all end up finding our place,
Somewhere that we are whole..

Life is a Game,Just play it

Roll the dice again
for nothing more than less.
Go ahead and take a turn
for a second chance at happiness.

Maybe we'll win this time,
it could be our lucky day.
To make this life worthwhile,
to make things go our way.

End up with a number,
go on and take those steps.
Walk on to a new beginning,
forgive and pay your debts.


Take a chance on love,
you never know what you may get.
Evin if you play the wrong card,
you can pick another from the deck.

Life is like a game,
play along cause it's your call.
The only way you truly lose
is if you don't try to play at all ..

God made me just to be Unhappy ?

Hearing words piercing my heart
Expressing abyssal pain
Sharing fearful inner thoughts
Broken spirit still remains

Soft whispers became icy arrows
Puncturing a delicate target
My drawn lips, tightened bow
Projectile voice, tipped with regret

Placed upon a pedestal
Spitting accusations of wrong
Scorning you for my past
By my side, is where you belong

Toxic words more damaging
Than a physical strike
Killing loving life essence
Faster than the third reich

Splintering what we've built
Slicing beauty to the core
Filled with heavy sorrow
Hope to repair what I tore

Crystal heart has been shattered
By your testimate of pain
Love from a magenta gem
Attempting to maintain ..

The Story Of My Life...

Story of my life,
I always pay the price
You say you love me,
Your just a great liar to be.

Wonder why I hate you,
Turn around, look at me
Oh! Thats right, you can't,
I not there, so just stare.

Stare at the blowing wind,
Where I could have been
Stare at the empty space,
Where I used to stand.

You killed me, took my heart,
Ripped it from my chest
Held it, beating, in your hand.
Then just dropped it to the ground.

You killed me, not a tear shed,
Or a thought left for the dead ..

To Whom Shall I Complain ?

Some say I am a betrayer betrayed,
but if I have never betrayed anyone,and have just been betrayed in love why would you say this ?

Is it because after you hurt my heart and split it open that when I hated you I became a betrayer ?Or is it because I wont let anyone in because the pain hurts ?

Am I the betrayer full of hate for you?
It is true I hate you but there is a part of me that wont let you go.

I still hate you or how you hurt me,but I still love the way you were and how you would hold me in your arms.

Now I feel like I'm falling..
To Whom shall i complain?

My Destiny Always Deceives Me

The ultimate pain of solitude and silence
Broken by the sounds of whimpering
Blood is everywhere
Spelling out the horror of what happened
Telling no lies
And giving no explanation

Fear overwhelms the victim
Who's sitting in the corner
The blade lays on the floor
Covered in red liquid
The victim is dying
But she's enjoying every second ..