I Already Miss You

Looking back on everything,
I still remember her smile.
I wish things didn't end so soon,
And turn back time for awhile.

No matter how much it hurts,
I still love her so.
A part of me needs her so much,
Can't seem to let her go.

Knowing I won't be able to see her,
Makes my heart cry out in pain.
I can't believe we won't talk anymore,
The thought makes me wanna go insane.

She was my reason for waking up,
For the smile you see on my face.
Going a single day without her,
Makes me feel so out of place.

I was afraid of opening up,
Now I'm afraid of the next day.
Whenever I see her one last time,
I'm terrified of what she may say.

I know tomorrow will hurt,
But the tears will fade away.
Life is too short for regrets,
There will be a brighter day.

But when I see her one last time,
I won't know what to do...
When she tells me that last goodbye,
I'll whisper,"I already miss you.."

Lying To Forget

This lie's become a part of me
For months, I've played this game
Acting like it doesn't hurt
Each time I hear her name

Ignoring what's inside of me
Pretending I've moved on
As if the feelings I once had
For her are somehow gone

Spending each and every day
With happiness and laughs
Forgetting all our memories
Avoiding photographs

But last night when I saw her
For the first time since she left
My heart stopped for a moment...
I couldn't catch my breath


When suddenly it hit me
As the tears started to flow
That even after all this time...
I just can't let her go

What Did You Expect ?

You came into my life
As quickly as you left.
You grabbed a cutting knife
And sliced right through my breast.

You didn't mean to hurt
But what did you expect?

My heart now cut in two
It feels beyond repair.
Injury done by you
God, life just isn't fair.

You didn't mean to hurt
But what did you expect?

So here we are, just friends,
But I long to be more.
Desire with no end
Throbbing from my core.

You didn't mean to hurt
But what did you expect?

The Joke's On Me

I keep waiting for the phone to ring
Yet I know it won't be you;
I try to fill my life with busyness
Yet all I do is think of you.

What became of us
And all our dreams and plans;
How could you turn and walk away
As I watched our castles turn to sand?

Do you never even miss me
Don't you long to caress my face;
How could you forget so easily
And You I can't erase?

I want to be in your arms again
To see the laughter in your eyes;
But I guess the joke's on me
And Oh! Was I surprised!

Never Alone

I feel you in the morning
When at first I awake
Your thought is with me
With each decision I make

You'd been around forever
Since the first breath I took
Now I have to go on alone
But for love, I need not look

Cause by what you bestowed
In our short time together
Will last in my heart
Forever and ever

Although you've left
And now walk above
I'm never alone
I'm wrapped in your love

Enjoy now your long waited reward
Feel peace that your love continues on
What was taught to me, will be taught to mine
Cause you live on in me even after you've gone

I Close My Eyes To Feel U

When I look at your eyes, I see your true self.
I see you're sweet, and caring.
I see you're giving and forgiving.
I see your love for me.

When I look at your eyes
I stop myself from crying
When I'm alone and think about your eyes I cry,
I can't stop thinking that one day I'll never see those eyes again
That I'll never see the love or the sweetness

Or the love that makes you who you are.
One day you'll be gone - gone from me.
Gone from this world.
No matter what happens,
those eyes will one day close
And forever rest in peace.



But you'll never be completely gone,
Because every time I close my eyes,
There you will be.

The Day That I Die

On the day that I die
There will be no sun
It will all be cold
No warmth

On the day that I go
Everyone will go on
One less mouth to feed
Good riddance

On the day that I leave
No one will care
I had no one to start with
All alone

On the day that I die
I will not cry
We will all go soon
Why wait?


On the day that I go
I won't say Good-Bye
Who would care?
No one

On the day that I leave
I will be happy
The misery will go away
No pain

On the day that I die
My soul will let go
To all the torture
I'm free

My Love Left On A Saturday

My belt loosens slowly.
Reminders of you stay fresh
in murky ponds of suffocating tadpoles.
Wake me in the morning,
when the sun shines again.
It's frightening when all I know
falls apart.
And all I know is you.
Hunger squeezes me tighter.
My soul sags with exhaustion.
Ashtrays fill with sleepless nights.
Weeping intensifies my anxiety.
Can tomorrow come without you...
here today?
The cheap chandelier falls on my face.
The rose filled lamp explodes in my hands.
Pain is unrecognizable.
All I knew was you.
You.
My love.

You Broke Me, You Broke My Heart

If this is goodbye,
don't come back
if this is the end,
don't wake me up.

You broke me, you broke my heart,
you broke everything!
You turned my world upside down and inside out,
BUT I know it was worth it for
that one moment of love we had,
it's a shame it went bad..

You walk by me everyday and say hello.
Everyday you take time out to listen to me.
You talk to me, smile at me,
laugh with me, and have fun with me.

Well, I talk, smile and laugh too,
but inside I'm hurting.
Deep down it hurts to be with you because
I love you and you are the only one.

One day you'll ask me,
"which is more important to you, me or your life"
I'll say, "My life" and you'll go and
leave me with out knowing that you are my life...